A Break From Clomid?

I'm not so sure how I feel about this cycle. I had some unexpected medical things happen this month. It's actually a funny story. Last Friday night, my husband DanRo and I were lounging in bed. We both got up to adjust at the same time and we hit heads. We didn't hit hard at all so I didn't think anything of it. I laid back and started doing some online training for work. A few hours later, I sat up and realized I was dizzy. I had DanRo look at my eyes and one pupil was larger than the other. So, after consulting with his mother who is a nurse, we went to the emergency room. They did a CT scan, and told me I didn't have a concussion, but I showed all the classic symptoms, and still do. Today, five days later, I still have a headache, among other symptoms. Today I went to my doctor and she prescribed me some pain meds.

With all that going on, I'm just not feeling super confident about our chances of conception this month. There has been lots of added stress. I have been taking meds that I normally don't take. My body is just very off this cycle.

DanRo and I had a discussion the other night, and we decided that if this cycle isn't successful, that we are going to take a break from me taking the Clomid. This is for several different reasons. First of all, it is not good for any woman to take Clomid for a long period of time. It's not good for you. Second of all, I do not like the side effects that I have on the Clomid. I have lots of hot flashes. I get nauseous. Sometimes I even throw up. I get hormonal headaches. I have crazy mood swings. And every Clomid cycle, from the time I ovulate until I start my period, I get the equivalent of pregnancy symptoms. Not only does that suck physically, but it wreaks havoc on me mentally.

Another reason we are going to take a break is because my OBGYN has suggested that we have some testing done. For DanRo, she has suggested a semen analysis. For me, she has recommended an HSG. Due to several reasons, those tests won't be able to be completed right away. I would like to wait to get the results of those first to make sure there is nothing else wrong before subjecting myself to more Clomid.

But I'm having mixed emotions about it. I don't want to suffer through these horrible side effects anymore. I haven't had a day that I actually felt good in months. That isn't fair to me or to DanRo. But, without the Clomid, it will be very hard for us to conceive. I really, REALLY don't want to take more medication. We have been trying to do things more naturally lately. I don't like all the added chemicals in my body. But my desire to have a child would make me do just about anything at this point, even if it means I have to suffer. It's time to sit down and weigh the options. Right now in just don't know.